I'm sorry for not posting yesterday, my day went well but I left my charger at my mates house, when It came down to writing my blog my comp died. I also got really upset, thankfully Steph and my bf both perked me up (Steph more of course, guys just can't do support as well hehe) Well I think this all really effected me today, from the moment i woke up I have been on some crazy carb binge! I've had pasta, a teaspoon of bread and butter pudding (which I chew and spat out), toast, toast and more damn toast! Like 6 slices all together, I just want to cry. I've probably eaten 1000 calories, I don't deserve to live eating like such a fat greedy disgusting pig.
Why couldn't I have just walked away? I feel like fasting for a week now. I feel too ashamed to post pics, really i feel too ashamed to talk to any of you, as I know how hard you are all working. I'm just pathetic, but I swear that I will not binge again until the end of abc! I can't, how will I ever reach perfection haha perfection, how will i ever be NORMAL weight let alone obese :(
So again I apologise to you all, ana is chastising me at every minute and I deserve every word.
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